DesMenism

First of all, I would like to thanks my grandmom, she bought 2 trousers for me. Padini Authentics(long) , the other was Body glove.I love you grandmom.Muacksss



Something special happen today. My mom and my ah yee had settle their problem. She say sorry to my mom. My mom said, a year going to past, so just let past be the past. Hooray!!!! I am too happy today. Lol.. Thx Chee Loon too for the free drinks today. Thx. And he say thx to me when he give me the free drinks. = =..

After finished watching my tv show. I had an inspire to publish this post. I rapidly asking myself. What is life? or What is my life? I cant get any satisfying answer. This is what the show said" Life is not a very long period, don't give yourself so much pressure and gap to tighten your freedom" I am 18 years old now, basically I still have 50 or 60 years to go. So, what I face tommorow or what my path is totally unknown.
The show are talking about a small nomadic "groups" travelling around The Sahara desert. What they want for their live is totally simple and most of all they dont even have a fixed shelter. In the Sahara desert, the world largest desert is a big freeland. A view that without any disturbance. Their life is full of freedom. No worries and pressure. Once they have finish utilized up all the resources near them, they will shift again. I do not know whether I want freedom or being locked up in the city which full of pressure. The freedom I want, is not the kind of freedom that nobody control you, do anything you like and go anywhere you want. The freedom I want, is free from the heart.

My life. Sometimes, I heard my pals talked about their childhood stories. How fun and happy they are. But I don't even remember what sweet memories during my childhood time. I hated my father for giving me such a bad and unprotective shelter . I blame him for not giving me the best. Blaming him for bringing troubles home. Blaming him for upseting the whole family members. And most of all blaming him for not giving me the opportunity to do what I love to do. One or two people asking me," Why you choose HR?, Good meh?". Then, I will answer them,"Interested mah". The truth is not. This is the first time I tell someone if I not mistooken. If I had told someone maybe the person is Ky, Ruby or Justin. Actually I am not so interested in HR. I like something that can be spotted by everyone. My second choice was Air-steward or pilot. Because of monetary problem, I "terpaksa" to let go all my ambitions and take HR. Because business is the fastest path to gain money. The whole family putting their effort and hope on me. So I cant put them in risk. I need gain more money to give my mom, brothers and sister a more comfortable environment to live in. I dont want them to follow my footstep or path, do not have the opportunity to choose their likes. I dont dare to say I am noble. It is only what I feel and what I hope to.

Anyway, Life is not a long period, as the show stated. Why dont I be more open minded to everyone. Widespread my view. Try to stand in other point or position to look at the situation. So that I will lock and tighten in my only point of view. Appreciate everyone around me. Someday, they will leave us. If you cant change the people, why dont you change yourself? Do everything I love to, but not harming or hurting people. If has such a way, why not I give it a try. One of my senior told me "You are still young, dont scare to lose, try everything. The most important was what you gain during the progress and not what is the result or what you gain after the progress".

Tagged by Ms Elaine Chin

confess that in the year of 2008, I...


(*) stayed single for the whole year

( ) got your first kiss

( ) kissed someone new

( ) made-out in/on a car

( ) kissed in the snow

( ) celebrated Halloween

( ) kissed in the rain

(*) had your heart broken

( ) broke someone else's heart

(*) had a stalker

( ) mooned someone

( ) had a good relationship with someone

(*) suffered

(*) someone questioned your sexual orientation

( ) came out of the closet

( ) gotten pregnant

( ) gotten someone else pregnant

( ) had an abortion

( ) gotten married

( ) had a divorce

( ) dated someone you'll never forget

(*) done something you've regretted

( ) lost your true love

( ) lost faith in love

( ) kissed under mistletoe

( ) got a promotion

(*) got a pay raise

(*) changed jobs

( ) waited until one day before to begin a project

( ) lost your job

(*) quit your job

( ) dated a co-worker

( ) dated your boss

( ) dated your boss' daughter/son

( ) got fired from your job

( ) took an honour/ advanced class

( ) broke the dress code

( ) did something you were proud of

( ) discovered a new talent

(*) proved yourself an idiot

(*) were involved in something you'll never forget

(n) painted a picture

( ) wrote a poem

(*) ran a mile

(*) seen a live concert

( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch

( ) posted a blog on MySpace

(*) listened to music you couldn't stand

(*) went swimming

(*) skinny-dipped

( ) went to a sleepover

( ) went camping

( ) threw a surprise party

(*) laughed till you cried

( ) laughed till you peed in your pants

( ) flirted shamelessly

( ) broke in a line of waiting people

(*) volunteered to help out others

( ) visited a new state

(*) told someone you were busy when you weren't

( ) partied to celebrate the new year

( ) cooked a disastrous meal

( ) drove the car drunk

(*) lost something important to you

( ) smoked a cigarette

( ) lied about how old you were

( ) got a gift you adore

( ) got 'shit faced' on alcohol

( ) took a nude picture of yourself

( ) almost got arrested

( ) prank called someone

( ) saw a college football game in person


JANUARY 2008

1. Who kissed you on new years?- My mom.lol.

2. Did you have a new year's resolution this year?- Maybe.

3. Does it snow where you live?- Hope so.

4. Do you like hot chocolate?- Yup.

5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?- Dunno wat is this

6. Do you ski or snowboard?- Ski yes. During I was a kid in Seoul, Korea.


FEBRUARY 2008

1. Who was your Valentine?- No one

2. When you were little did you buy Valentine's for the whole class?- My mother will kill me for wasting money

3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?- Lame..

4. What did you get for valentines?- I was working..


MARCH 2008

1. Are you Irish?- Nope.

2. Do you wear green every year on St. Patrick's Day?- What is St. Patrick's Day?

3. What did you do for March Break?- Nothing.


APRIL 2008

1. Do you like the rain?- When I was sleeping or at night.

2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?- No.

3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter?- Nope.

4. Do you celebrate 4/20?- Whose birthday?

5. Do you "love" the month of April?- Half half.


MAY 2008


1. What is your favourite flower?- I dont like flowers, if fragrance I like lavender. Is lavender a flower?.

2. Finish the phrase "April showers":- with May.lol

3. Do you celebrate May 24th:- I only knew that my brother birthday is on 21th May.

4. Is May anything special to you?- Admond's Birthday.

JUNE 2008

1. What did you do for Father's Day?- I dont really celebrate Father's Day.

2. Did you do anything fun during this month?- Start college life?

3. Have a favorite baseball team?- Nope.

JULY 2008

1. What did you do on the 1st of July?- I lost my purse..

2. Did you go to the fireworks?- No.

3. Do you tan in the day?- No.


AUGUST 2008


1. Did you do anything special at the end of your summer?- Nope.

2. What was your favourite memory of summer?- My birthday.

3. Did you have sunburn?- No.

4. Did you go to the pool a lot?- Yup.


SEPTEMBER 2008

1. Did you attend school?- Yes

2. Do you like fall better than summer?- Fall, chiller than Summer

3. Anything special about September to you?- Mooncakes... Yummy :p


OCTOBER 2008

1. What was your last Halloween costume?- I dont celebrate Halloween

2. What is your favourite candy?- Ferero Rocher( spell correctly?)

3. What was your favourite thing about this month?- Elaine's Birthday and Clover's Birthday


NOVEMBER 2008

1. Whose house do you go to for Thanksgivings?- I don't celebrate thanksgiving.

2. What is your favourite thing about November?- Started New semester


DECEMBER 2008

1. Do you celebrate Christmas?- Yup.

2. What are you thankful for?- The people around me.

3. Have you ever been kissed under the mistletoe?- What is that?

4. Get anything special last year?- Nope.

5. What do you want this year?- Everything... Lol

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Where did you begin 2008?- Jusco Cheras Selatan

Where did you go on vacation?- Nowhere

What did you purchase that was over $500?- Handphone

Did you know anybody who got married?- Yes.

Did you know anybody who passed away?- Yes.

Did you move anywhere?- No.

What sporting events did you attend?- Swimming. ended up look dark and skinny now.. T.T

What concerts/ shows did you go to?-十分红 sponsored by TOTO.. lol .

Describe your birthday:- Great. Lol.. Celebrated with my new pals in Sakae Sushi, KlCC and Redbox, Low Yat plaza

What has been your favourite moment(s)?- Semester Break.

Any new additions to your family?- Nope.

What was your best month?- December.

What was your worst month?- May and June?

What music will you remember 2008 by?- Dont Know

Made new friends?- Yes. ALOT.

Favourite Night out?- Nope.

Overall, how would you rate this year?- 7.5/10?

Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?- College.

Change your hairstyle?- Yes, BIG DIFFERENCE

Do anything embarrassing?-Almost everyday

Be honest - did you watch American Idol?- Nope.

Did you get sick this year?- Ya

Are you happy to see 2008 go?- Maybe.

Been naughty or nice?- Both

I tag.. Clover, Kaywai, and Siew Lai

Tagged by Clover



你被点名了...
来找你的名字吧！

(１）　被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。

（２）　請老實的回答每一個問題。

（３）　不行擅自塗改題目。

（４）　寫完請點8位小朋友，不可不點。

（５）　點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。

（６） 那8位小朋友填完問卷，必須把問卷寄回 - 給你填問卷的人



--------------[ 壹 ] . 個 人 題 - １０ 題 --------------



[ 01 ] 你叫什么: Desmond Pang



[ 02 ] 你的綽號:desmen, 亲爱的，老hung(seldom called by people already)



[ 03 ] 你的血型：B



[ 04 ] 你的星座：Leo



[ 05 ] 你是男還是女：Male



[ 06 ] 你幾歲：18



[ 07 ] 你住哪裡：KL



[ 08 ] 你現在的學校：Tarc



[ 09 ] 你有沒有手機：Stupid question= =, yes...



[ 10 ] 承上，那是多少：1 =.=





--------------[ 貳 ] . 朋 友 題 - １０ 題 --------------



[ 11 ] 你最要好的朋友（限１個）： Erm... Actually many... Kaywai lo...



[ 12 ] 你最討厭的人（限１個）：Hints: 7 sister and one guy. Guessed it?


[ 13 ] 你最正的女性朋友（限１個）： Erm.... No.. lol



[ 14 ] 你最帥的男性朋友（限１個）： Kim Fong



[ 15 ] 什麼樣的女生你最討厭：Overconfident, faker, pretending, action



[ 16 ] 什麼樣的男生你最討厭：What for i need to answer this question? Can I skip??



[ 17 ] 你的好朋友有誰（不限）： Justin and his gf Ruby, Kaywai, Kim Fong, Chin Kang, Lexandl and Elaine and Soo Cheng too.. Haha



[ 18 ] 你經常和哪位朋友出去：Kaywai, Justin couple, Kim Fong and Chin Kang



[ 19 ] 你身邊最憨的朋友（限１個，不能自己）: Dont know what is this



[ 20 ] 你身邊最可愛的朋友（限１個）： Lexandl...Hohohohoho





-------------[ 參 ] . 感 情 題 - １５ 題 --------------



[ 21 ] 你有沒有喜歡的人：No



[ 22 ] 如果有，那他叫什麼：Talk to the air??



[ 23 ] 如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半：Is not a good timing now



[ 24 ] 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過：No



[ 25 ] 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過：2... Lol



[ 26 ] 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋友: Zero.....



[ 27 ] 你現在有另一半嗎：My friends lo



[ 28 ] 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣：Punch him, no hesitating and no explanation. Just punch at his face



[ 29 ] 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎: No, if yes i had already got my first love = =



[ 30 ] 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人：-



[ 31 ]你和另一半牽手過嗎：-



[ 32 ]你的另一半抱或親過嗎：-



[ 33 ] 你跟異性牽手過嗎：Got. couple of times



[34 ] 是誰，你們什麼關係： Girl "punya" friend.. Gagaga



[ 35 ] 現在有人在追你嗎：Basically. tak ada





-----[ 肆 ] . 混 合 題 - １０ 題 --------------



[ 36 ] 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣： I had tried before. I dont want such feelings to return



[ 37 ] 如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會怎樣： Have been



[ 38 ] 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會怎樣：Same as above



[ 39 ] 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎：I love my mom more than myself



[ 40 ] 你上課認真嗎: Sometimes



[ 41 ] 你上課都在做什麼：Sharing MP3s with Kim Fong, Soo cheng and Kaywai.. Lol



[ 42 ] 你功課好不好： Average



[ 43 ]你开电腦都在幹麻：上MSN,blogging



[ 44 ]你的即时通有多少个同性： Who will compute?



[ 45 ] 你的即時通裡有多少個異性：So boring until this kind of stage?

---------[ 伍 ] . 兇 手 題 - １０ 題 --------------

[ 46 ] 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：Clover


[ 47 ] 这個人對你好不好：Ok ler...


[ 48 ] 這個人是你的誰：Formal classmates


[ 49 ] 你有喜歡過這個人嗎：Ok ler.. As friend.


[ 50 ] 你們認識多久了： 3 years


[ 51 ] 這個人是怎樣的人：Crazy, Hyperactive and energetic


[ 52 ] 這個人正／帥嗎：No... HAHAHAHA


[ 53 ] 這個人有沒有喜歡過你：No.. hehe


[ 54 ] 這個人跟你有沒有在一起過：no~


[ 55 ] 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼辦：Impossible than mission impossible.. LOL


------[ 陸 ] . 聯 想 題 - １０ 題-------------


[ 56 ] 說到正妹你會想到誰：Angelina Jolie

[ 57 ] 說到帥哥你會想到誰：Celebrities

[ 58 ] 說到憨你會想到誰：-

[ 59 ] 說到痴你會想到誰：Clover

[ 60 ] 說到暗戀你會想到誰：No

[ 61 ] 說到出去玩你會想到誰：Justin couple, Kaywai, Kim Fong and chin kang

[ 62 ] 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：Justin, Ruby, Chee Loon, Bescy and chin kang

[ 63 ] 說到傻子你會想到誰: Justin... Lol

[ 64 ] 說到笑點低你會想到誰：Ruby and Kaywai

[ 65 ] 說到愛笑你會想到誰：Myself, Ruby and kaywai

-------------[ 柒 ] . 學 校 題 - １１ 題 --------------

[ 66 ] 你的班導是誰：Gooi Soo Cheng

[ 67 ] 你的座位是第幾排第幾個： Unfixed

[ 68 ] 你最喜歡的老師是誰：Ms Yap Saw Teng

[ 70 ] 你的英文好嗎：Satisfied

[ 71 ] 你的體育好嗎： OK咯~

[ 72 ] 你的数学好么： Average

[ 73 ] 你喜不喜歡你的校長：I also dont know who is my current headmaster

[ 74 ] 你的學校好看嗎：Very good...

[ 75 ] 你的班級是：1 DHR

[ 76 ] 你的班級在幾樓：Nomadic

------------[ 捌 ] . 點 名 題 - 8 題 ----------

1.Elaine
2. Kaywai
3.Ivy
4.Siew Lai
5.Christine
6.William
7. Xinyi
8.Lexandl

I really cant stand that bitch anymore. I really dont know what she thinking and what she made of.. She has no feelings, no brain and most of all NO MANNERS!!! This afternoon, is raining cats and dogs outside. She asked my grandpa help her to buy her lunch and dinner together( she likes to waste food). This kind of people eat food for what?? Is useless... Eat shit is far more better.. Continue.. Is raining, she called an old man with motorcyle to help her buy her food. She is absolutely COLD BLOODED. If you are hungry, why dont you just cook some instant noodles or call for delivery?? Bitch is always bitch. If you scold her, and she will talk bitch language and say " I am hungry, than how oh!!??". I give you a solution, step in the toilet and find for your food. Anyway, is free for life and CONVENIENT for your living lifestyle. Sleep, eat and shit everyday. Start retired in the age of 33. Criticized everyone in your surroundings and judged people. Thought herself is the best in the worl and a perfectionist , while everyone are not perfect like her. PLEASE SHUT THE FXXX UP. My mom said, we are going to move on 19th this month, if we cant move out this day. We need to moved before New Year. Oh my gosh, I cant even stand one more second is this BLOODY SURROUNDINGS. Stop talking about that bitch.

Lets see some lame jokes and conversation I had during this week.
For English class, we need to listed out 2o nouns for each categories; Vegetables, Fruits, Animals(Wild) and Occupations. Sounds like kindergarden doing exercises.. Lol.. So, this is what happen.

Madam Jeya: Now, who can give me the first five wild animals?
Me:...(whispered).. Madagasgar..
Ky: BOLT
Me&ky:Hahahahaha

....................................................LAME...........................................................

Lexandl was sitting behind me with elaine. While Chee Loon sat infront me.

Madam Jeya: Lexandl, give me the nouns for occupation.
Me,Ky, Chee Loon and Kim Fong facing to Lex and forcing him to say: Ayam, ayam, ayam....
Lexandl: Madam, they were forcing me to say prostitution
Madam:= =.You guys!!!


....................................................LAME...........................................................

The next day, during break. We repeat the animal jokes to Ruby. Ruby gave us a new wild animal.

Thats all for this week. Gagaga. Stay tuned.. Lol

Today was such a quarrelsome day. I was awoken by my mom around 12.30, we two have a small chat deciding where we going to have our lunch. So, i went to the toilet and dressed myself up. Before, I jump into the next part. I have some words. For my close friends, they know what happened in family currently. So I do not wanted to do further explanation. What I can said was, my mom quarreled with my aunt(staying with us) for about one month, they had cold war. Continue my last part. Suddenly, my mom ran down to her room and knocked her door to apoligize for my brother, because my brother had offended her last night. Then, she sneaked into my brothers room at around 6.a.m in the morning and stole my brother's phone . The phone was bought by her. Although she had the will to take back, but logically once you had gave a thing to another people, can you take it back?. The most stupid was she go and called my grandmom and complaining about my brother. She said that my brother want to beat her. Crazy.. So ended up, my grandmom called my mom and scolded my mom "how to teach my brother".

So my mom went to apologize with her, but she still very action say "Sorry loh I dont accept this kind of tactics".. Fxxx. So, I was very angry and grabbed my mother away from outside her door. Then I was keep yelling and said "What for you say sorry to this kind of bastard? She is useless, hopeless and helpless!! Just let her be, she died or whatever is none of our business!! Then my mom get what I said and try to bargain with her for the money she had own my mom for a long time. Then, those fxxking words that only will said by bastard blurted from her stupid mouth " (In cantonese~) 有本事的话， 找人跟我收啦! 笨" What kind of people is this. So I just told my mom "Dont care about her 她死她贱!!" Then fine, my mom and me trying to find a new home and shifted as fast as possible.

So , we just left and have our lunch outside. My mom call me to ask for a hand from my father. As I said, those who close with me will know that my relationship with my father are damn worst. I hate him. For my mother, I just made a call and asked him about the procedures and particulars when renting a house. Then, he asked where are we, he came and join us for lunch. Been a long long time i didnt ate with him on the same table. So he is willing to help us. I asking help from him doesnt meant that I had forgiven him what he did in the past, I just give him a burden or responsibility that a father should bear. After that we just went home and get some sleep, because this few days we barely had some sleep. That bitch and her bf played those techno songs with a very high volume in the midnight. Idiot.. Then when is time for dinner, we went to Kl near Jalan Maharajalela to eat Hokkien mee. The most famous there. Good. lol. My brother said would like to have some desserts before going home to see that bitch. My mom drove us to the desserts stall in Taman Lensen. Unfortunately, it closed. So, we headed back to our area and have our milo ais at the mamak stall. I made fun of my mom." My Sesame paste and Bu Bu Cha Cha become milo ais" When we ready to back home, my friend asked me to go yumcha. I was very happy coz I didnt met them for a long time. We headed the mamak stall at Taman Megah and had my milo ais again. Lol

This time, is not what I had expected. I do not enjoy laughing like old days or even with my current coursemates. I felt like being isolated. I not trying to offend anyone, but is true.Is a fact. Our distance are draging far and far. Their conversation I cant even join in. What I had gone through and what did they gone trough are totally different. They live in a warm and perfect family. But I am not. I dont have a warm and protective shelter for me to stay in. Some of them even contempted me. I felt, I am very pathetic and such a loser or failure..

Nowadays, all my friends like to talk lame jokes = =. Probably influenced by Ruby.. Lol.. During the latest FOA class, our tutor discussed our replacement class that we had ignored him last week. He was quite dissapointed because we not agree to replaced our tutorial class. So, on that day he asked us again, whether we still want our replacement class anot. Than Kim Fong suddenly very funny and said:





I was busying coppied some notes



Mr Wee: So, you all want your replacement class anot?

Kim:See before ghost, also scare dark lar

KY:Hahahahaha

Me:What happen?

KY:You know what Kim fong said?



I shook my head

KY:He said See before ghost also scare dark la.

Me:Huh?

KY:见过鬼还不怕黑meh

Me:Hahaha.. Zhadou



Another lame conversation was from Me and Elaine. Today our english lecture gave us a test, summary test. She required us to submit our work in 3o minutes time. Than we starts our work. Elaine sat beside me, when I try to ask Elaine something. Madam Jeya will stare at me and said" What are you doing Desmond?". Then I will gave some random answer. lol. Justin was the first person too passed up, than follow by me. When all of us finished our work, Madam Jeya let us off. There was where our lame conversation start



I was packing up all my things and wait for Elaine to go out from that row, so that I can pass through.



Elaine was tearing up some papers..

Pzz.. Pzz...

In cantonese~

Me:Elaine, 你"撕纸"啊?
She stunned and stare at me for awhile than she reply

Elaine:不是啊!，我"老虎"啊!

Lame~~ But I also can laughed my brain out. Haha. Than after that we continue our plan.. REDBOX LOWYAT. Haha. Ruby waited us outside. The weather does not cooperate with us. It is raining cats and dogs. We hadto spent 10 minutes walked to get to the LRT station. When we reached the station, all our shoes have become mini aquarium. Can tame fish inside. IS FULL OF WATER. Then, when we reached Bukit Bintang. We plan to have short walk at Sungei Wang, because is still early. Finished walking, Justin and Ruby plan to shops something. So,, we go and get our room first. No need further briefing for the Sing K session, as usual "lar" nothing special. I only know that Ruby buy a loads of tissue paper. Crazy... After that we have our dinner at "Shinoya" (I think so= .=). We have our jokes and food finish then we went home. Ruby was asking me how I go home.

Ruby: How you going home?
Me: With my 亲爱的(kaywai;we use to call each other that)
Ruby: Your 亲爱的 not me meh?
Me: No loh, your 亲爱的 not Justin meh?
Ruby: Yer... I dun care...
Me:Ok lah, than you become 亲爱的 number two lah
Ruby: Yeh!!




Crazy.... Justin and Ruby is a very good friend indeed. This two couples taught me and Kaywai alot of things. They care us alot. Kaywai need some extra income. So, they recommend him to teach home tuition. This two couple will to help him to find customer and promote for him. Not much friends are willing to sacrificed so much like that, included me. They also help me to solve many problems in studies or in daily life.I had treated them as my buddy n sisters ... Lol.. In final words, this couple are very funny on its own, when they bumped with me and kaywai. The situation getting worst . Haha~