DesMenism

Today was such a quarrelsome day. I was awoken by my mom around 12.30, we two have a small chat deciding where we going to have our lunch. So, i went to the toilet and dressed myself up. Before, I jump into the next part. I have some words. For my close friends, they know what happened in family currently. So I do not wanted to do further explanation. What I can said was, my mom quarreled with my aunt(staying with us) for about one month, they had cold war. Continue my last part. Suddenly, my mom ran down to her room and knocked her door to apoligize for my brother, because my brother had offended her last night. Then, she sneaked into my brothers room at around 6.a.m in the morning and stole my brother's phone . The phone was bought by her. Although she had the will to take back, but logically once you had gave a thing to another people, can you take it back?. The most stupid was she go and called my grandmom and complaining about my brother. She said that my brother want to beat her. Crazy.. So ended up, my grandmom called my mom and scolded my mom "how to teach my brother".

So my mom went to apologize with her, but she still very action say "Sorry loh I dont accept this kind of tactics".. Fxxx. So, I was very angry and grabbed my mother away from outside her door. Then I was keep yelling and said "What for you say sorry to this kind of bastard? She is useless, hopeless and helpless!! Just let her be, she died or whatever is none of our business!! Then my mom get what I said and try to bargain with her for the money she had own my mom for a long time. Then, those fxxking words that only will said by bastard blurted from her stupid mouth " (In cantonese~) 有本事的话， 找人跟我收啦! 笨" What kind of people is this. So I just told my mom "Dont care about her 她死她贱!!" Then fine, my mom and me trying to find a new home and shifted as fast as possible.

So , we just left and have our lunch outside. My mom call me to ask for a hand from my father. As I said, those who close with me will know that my relationship with my father are damn worst. I hate him. For my mother, I just made a call and asked him about the procedures and particulars when renting a house. Then, he asked where are we, he came and join us for lunch. Been a long long time i didnt ate with him on the same table. So he is willing to help us. I asking help from him doesnt meant that I had forgiven him what he did in the past, I just give him a burden or responsibility that a father should bear. After that we just went home and get some sleep, because this few days we barely had some sleep. That bitch and her bf played those techno songs with a very high volume in the midnight. Idiot.. Then when is time for dinner, we went to Kl near Jalan Maharajalela to eat Hokkien mee. The most famous there. Good. lol. My brother said would like to have some desserts before going home to see that bitch. My mom drove us to the desserts stall in Taman Lensen. Unfortunately, it closed. So, we headed back to our area and have our milo ais at the mamak stall. I made fun of my mom." My Sesame paste and Bu Bu Cha Cha become milo ais" When we ready to back home, my friend asked me to go yumcha. I was very happy coz I didnt met them for a long time. We headed the mamak stall at Taman Megah and had my milo ais again. Lol

This time, is not what I had expected. I do not enjoy laughing like old days or even with my current coursemates. I felt like being isolated. I not trying to offend anyone, but is true.Is a fact. Our distance are draging far and far. Their conversation I cant even join in. What I had gone through and what did they gone trough are totally different. They live in a warm and perfect family. But I am not. I dont have a warm and protective shelter for me to stay in. Some of them even contempted me. I felt, I am very pathetic and such a loser or failure..